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I am currently busy repenting of incompetence, not so much my own, as all of humanity’s incompetence. ALL of it. Collectively, we’re all just kind of flaky Lord, sorry!

As if He hadn’t already noticed….

I am chuckling here, but it’s a true story! Long ago the Lord taught me that when something is making you crazy, just repent of it. If other people’s behavior is really bothering you, then there is probably something within you that is unresolved. I have been going half mad lately because nothing seems to work as it should and the simplest tasks cannot even seem to happen.

I tried to renew my license, an expensive and annoying task already, but I completely forgot that “due to covid,” nothing is really open 9-5 anymore. Everything is just a crap shoot. You might have to make an appointment or perhaps we’ll be here from 9:45 to 10:15 on days of the week with a “u” in them.

I tried to buy gas the other day, which is already painful as it is, but the pumps weren’t working, so I spent a good chunk of time waiting patiently for them to figure out what the problem was before finally just giving up.

I went to buy a cup of coffee and believe it or not, it hadn’t even occurred to anyone working to actually make some coffee for people to buy. I’m not tying to be all judgy it’s just that, you had one job. You only sell coffee! It’s kind of the whole reason why you got up and went to work in the first place.

So I spent two hours running about, going nowhere, and accomplishing nothing, before finally returning home, no worst for wear, I suppose. Also, I managed to spend absolutely no money, so I guess that’s a mixed blessing.

One of our ferries actually rammed into the dock the other day, doing significant damage, and while I wasn’t even there, it was still disconcerting. There’s a certain amount of trust and mutual cooperation required for us to all operate in civil society. I realize that sometimes stuff just happens, but still, I really appreciate maintaining the illusion that we are all somewhat competent.

Freak accidents happen but the number of freaky things that keep happening has a whole lot to do with our politics, specifically how all the really experienced and competent employees who wouldn’t take the vaxx, have now all been fired and replaced.

I pray often that those elected officials who came up with this brilliant plan are all fired and replaced, too.

There are some real benefits to talking to God, to prayer, to repentance. There is often a huge payoff, a sense of peace for sure, but also healing, a resolution to what troubles you. I now understand why all this incompetence has been triggering me. I grew up taking care of everyone else and survival itself meant fixing things and keeping a lid on the incompetence all around me.

I can’t tell you how hard it was to not step behind the counter and just show those gals how to make coffee and explain why such details matter. I also really wanted to reach across the counter at the gas station and click the buttons on the screen for them myself. I really wrestle with just letting the cards fall where they may. The very thought of just smiling politely and walking away without fixing it, good grief, I’m dying just thinking about it.

I just want to say, God is so faithful. He eases my fears and He brings order to my chaos. Philippians 1:5-6 says, “For your fellowship in the gospel from the first day until now; being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”