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“Discouraged, it means, “having lost confidence or enthusiasm; disheartened. ” Oh, I have so totally lost all enthusiasm for this whole game. That’s an understatement. Yep, I have a decided lack of enthusiasm going on.

I am so totally discouraged. These second draconian lockdowns that Jake the Snake just issued are kind of like a death blow to small businesses. He doesn’t want churches to meet either, and no singing of course. Thanksgiving is supposed to be canceled, too.

The restaurant I work at has now been doing take out for several months, just barely, on a skeleton crew. I hardly work 10 hours a week anymore. My heart is just breaking for some others that clearly aren’t going to make it at all. We had another suicide this week, too.

We’re already 7 months into this nonsense about, “two weeks to flatten the curve.” Everybody is masked and gloved 24/7 here, even when driving alone in their cars. It’s not like we ever opened up! The store is out of toilet paper and bottled water again because all the hoarders are panicked again.

That’s all just stuff, “just a thang” as we used to say. What’s really got me is how bloody stupid people are. Be happy, cheer up, you’ll just have to work from home now! Like people have absolutely no awareness that when you shut down businesses, you also shut down jobs. No jobs, means no money. No money means no food, no shelter.

Well it’s better than getting covid! Is it really? I’m not so sure about that.

There are a lot of really stupid people in the world who just do not care about other people. They don’t even care enough to ask what’s going on.

Our local government is doing some kind of anxiety ridden, bureaucratic, we-better-form–an-emergency-committee to try to mitigate the harm from this man made state of emergency we’ve just caused. Some sweet young thing told me about how responsible they’re being because they’re typing up some bylaws to help them be better prepared in the future, should this kind of thing ever happen again.

Sweetheart, there isn’t going to be a future.

I can totally put on a happy face, ignore Jake the Snake, enjoy Thanksgiving with or without the gov’s permission, and sing illegal praises in church at the top of my lungs. I know how to fight a mind game, a psy /ops. However, it’s still all taking it’s toll on me. I’m exhausted, I cry at the drop of a hat, and I can’t even envision where we will all be two weeks from now.

This is criminal. This is illegal. This is unconstitutional.

We are not “all in this together.” We are not,”together alone.” We are not the same at all! There’s a virus all right, but it isn’t covid, it’s cowardice, it’s complacency, it’s fear, with a few chronic sucks ups and a bit of greed thrown in for good measure.

Somebody told me they were battling anger. Stop battling it! Anger is the only healthy response to injustice. This is a grave injustice.