CS Lewis once wrote that evil was a parasite, that it simply attaches itself to what is good and perverts it.
Much of what is wrong in the world is simply the result of disordered or dysfunctional love. James 4:2 says, “Ye lust, and have not: ye kill, and desire to have, and cannot obtain: ye fight and war, yet ye have not, because ye ask not.”
Or if you prefer, Hannibal the Cannibal tells Clarisse in the “Silence of the Lambs,” What is his nature? He covets.
We want, we desire, we covet. And that is not “bad” at all, all those desires for things like love and connection are natural and innate to us. Even better, they are fully available to us! You have not, because you ask not. Ask and it shall be given to you.
Since we’re people, we often go and ask for what we need from things like drugs, sex, power, money, fame, hatred, murder, you name it, and those things all just leave us emptier than ever and unfulfilled.
I sometimes like to say hatred is just the flipside of love. The opposite of love is not hatred, it is indifference. Hatred is a feeling as heated and passionate as love, if not more so, and it requires a huge investment of energy. If you ever want to totally exhaust yourself, wallow in hatred for a while.
Don’t hate the “haters,” they have to live in their own world.
Sometimes I am around the recovery community and I like to quip that I am also in recovery… from murder. It helps to get me a 30 ft space bubble and a pew to myself, but what I mean is that my heart was once full of murder and hatred, just as it says in James, mostly on account of not getting what I needed from those around me. I was only murderous towards the “bad” people too, I assure you. “Some people just need killing,” as they sometimes say in old Westerns.
Of course, anyone who fails to meet your needs and expectations can become a “bad people” in the blink of an eye…
God has invested a great deal of time teaching me that you have not because you ask not. I am here to give you what you need. Ask and it shall be given to you. He gives us the secret desires of our heart, for real, but it often takes some maturity to reach for those things that He has for you that will genuinely satisfy your soul.
Perusing social media and Twitter today, it seems as if I am not the only murderer in the room wishing death upon people like we’re living out the lyrics of that 50 cent song, “Many men, many, many, many, many men
Wish death upon me.” The rest of that song is pretty vulgar and graphic but what also tugs at my heart are the words, “I’m hungry.”
He is the Bread of Heaven and He has unlimited food for our souls. What do you need? More love? More grace? More acceptance? More forgiveness? More wisdom? More safety? Strength? Peace? Whatever it is, whatever your soul hungers for, we have a good, good Father who is eager to fulfil our desires, to satisfy our hunger.
You have not because you ask not.