The world with its grief and suffering can really get you down, especially when you’ve seen too much, you know too much, and you’re haunted by that prophetic eye, relentless, always reminding you this just doesn’t end well. There is no best possible outcome here and one cannot change it, one cannot intercede. Whatever will be will be and it just isn’t going to be good.
Once seen, things can never be unseen, once known, things can never be unknown, but it isn’t true, not really. God really can wash your eyeballs clean, He can take it all away, He can and He does. He replaces cynicism and bitterness with innocence and purity. He hands us beauty for ashes. He changes the whole narrative and rewrites the story.
Even when you’ve seen too much.
He’s been working on me for a long time. I’m a hard case, a tough nut to crack. You just can’t break the broken. We’re like a little pile of shattered glass, sand that once got too hot. Stomp on us enough, we return to sand, throw us in the fire, we return to glass. You just can’t break the already broken. Damaged people are tough, we know how to survive. It’s hard to get through to us.
God is tougher however, and oddly gentle too, such a gentleman. He likes to sneak in under my radar and catch me unawares. He likes to make me laugh and I am instantly disarmed.
God is good and under Him, joy comes in the morning. He can take all our burdens away, He can wash us clean and restore what was lost. All that dark stuff that haunts our souls, He will indeed take it from us and teach us “whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.”
The renewing of our minds, the transformative power of the Holy Spirit, how incredible and miraculous that really is. “And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.“